So very excited!
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Friday, December 11, 2009
I don't know that I'm worthy to compare myself to Mary, the one who carried the Savior of our world in her womb, but I can't help but reflect constantly on the words of this song and the parallel in our lives at this time. Others wiser than me have written on this, so I hesitate to even try...
In December of 2007, at the hope of bringing Gabriel from Guatemala home, I first locked into the words uttered by Mary as the angel Gabriel came to her and told her she is to give birth to Jesus. I remember for the first time really, being able to put myself in her place. To be able to somewhat grasp her emotions. When we first learned of Gabriel in Guatemala, adoption was not on our radar. It truly was a divine message that we were to follow God through this child. We didn't know what it meant. We didn't know if it meant he would be our son, but we knew we were to follow God as He took us on a journey that involved this little boy. So very many things have happened since and today, two years later, we wait for the homecoming of not just one child, but two. As we wait, I continue to reflect on the particular words of the song:
Do you wonderAs you watch my face
If a wiser one, should of had my place
But I offer-all I am
For the mercy-of your plan
Help me be strong
Help me be
I stand amazed at Mary's answer to Gabriel's words to her: "I am the Lord's servant. May it be to me as you have said." (Luke 1:38) Oh to have a heart like Mary's. To have a response to the Lord's Call, no matter what He says, "May it be to me as you have said." I know the Lord has chosen me to have these two children. I know He's not surprised by anything or thinks maybe He should whip up a back-up plan should I fail. He's All-Knowing. Yet, I can't help in His presence to see my unworthiness. I suppose this exactly where I should be for I truly can do nothing without Christ.
As the celebration of the birth of Jesus approaches, I long to keep Him the focus of our time, our spending, our energy, everything. But I confess. I fail. I buy things we don't need. I expend energy to please man rather than Him. I pray that I can focus on Him. On the gift of His love. Help me, Lord, I pray. I am not worthy of your love, yet you give it anyway. Freely. No strings attached. Help me to love you. Help my unbelief. Help my insecurities and sin. Show me how to love like you.
"Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. When Christ, who is your life appears, then you also will appear with Him in glory." Colossians 3:3,4
Sunday, December 6, 2009
He's BIGGER than I thought He is...
He's kinder than I thought He is...
He's more powerful. More gracious. More Beautiful.
He's not only more gracious. He is GRACE. He is MERCY.
He is FAITHFUL.
He's not only better. He's GOOD.
He's not only powerful. He's ALL-POWERFUL.
He not only knows a lot. He's ALL-KNOWING.
He is HOLY. He is INFINITE. He is TRUTH.
He is PERFECTION. He is a CONSUMING FIRE.
He is LOVE.
The heavens can't contain Him. He breathes the stars into the sky. He knits us together in our mother's womb. We can never go anywhere He isn't.
He is UNCHANGING. He is I AM.
I've only caught a glimpse of who He really is.
Go ahead, ask Him, "Who are you, Lord?"
Thank you, Lord, for answering when we call. Thank you for showing us who you are. We make you so small. We enlarge ourselves in our minds. Forgive us for our arrogance. I pray for you to continue to show us who you are and in turn, whose we are. May we TRUST You and you alone. Amen.
Saturday, December 5, 2009
I found an amazing quote on another Momma's blog. You can check them out HERE
"Waiting on God isn't to be viewed as an obstruction in they way of the plan. Waiting is an essential part of the plan. For the child of God, waiting isn't simply about what I'll receive at the end of my wait. No, waiting is much more purposeful, efficient, and practical than that. Waiting is fundamentally about what I'll become as I wait. God is using the wait to do in and through me exactly what He's promised. Through the wait He's changing me. By means of the wait He's altering the fabric of my thoughts and desires. Through the wait He's causing me to see and experience new things about Him and His kingdom. And all of this sharpens me, enabling me to be a more useful tool in His redemptive hands."
Many people have mentioned to me over the last year that they could never do it. They could never wait this long for their baby. There have been many times over the last few years that I cried out to God, begging Him to tell me what He was doing, why we had to wait so long, why the change of direction. I came to a point when I realized I loved the Spiritual Wait. The wait that is described in the above quote. I seriously dislike the wait that I create in my own mind, giving God timelines and expectations from my little view of Him. I found, too, that this WAIT does not only apply to adoption but many other areas of my life. It seems that there are times in our lives when we can learn something more of who God truly is, more readily than other times. God reminds me often that everything is about Him. Adoption, Family, Friendships, Selling Homes, Careers, and yes WAITING.
For from him and through him and to him are all things. To him be the glory forever! Romans 11:36
Friday, December 4, 2009
At least three Dove families passed court this week, two of them just finding out today. What a week they've had! Still waiting to hear from and praying for the other family.
We received a photo and medical update on Baby Girl and Baby Boy. They're doing well. They look cuter than ever. We are so ready to have them home.
My dear friends at work had a "babies" shower for us this week. It was such a surprise and so wonderful.
We have little over a week for our court date. We invite you to pray with us that all of the paperwork is in place, and we can pick up the babies as soon as possible.
On another note, I've been totally inspired by a little girl who has raised over $20,000 for her family's adoption. She has totally got my gears rolling on how to help other families who want to begin the adoption process. Check them out here: 30 Day Journey of Hope