I had been doing pretty well until the end of last week. I fell off the wagon, the Patience Wagon, that is. Before I knew it, my impatience got the best of me and it turned into a full-blown pity party. Perhaps it was the announcement of a baby shower, or the sale of the home by someone else, I'm not really sure, but for a few hours, I took my eyes off of what God has promised to us, and started envying those around me. I feel like I've been pregnant since November 2007. That's like longer than an elephant pregnancy, right? (I'll have to ask a fourth grade elephant expert I know) It's not that I'm not joyous for those around me when things are happening in their lives. I truly am. I'm just READY. I'm ready for the babies. I'm ready to move. I'm ready to be a mommy to all four of my children. I'm ready to see what God has been preparing for oh so long.
After complaining to a few people these last few days, I finally cried out to God.
And He said:
"Write this. Write it out in big block letters so that it can be read on the run. This vision-message is a witness pointing to what's coming. It aches for the coming-it can hardly wait! And it doesn't lie. If it seems slow in coming, wait. It's on its way. It will come right on time."
~Habakkuk 2:2-3 (The Message)
"Write this. Write it out in big block letters so that it can be read on the run. This vision-message is a witness pointing to what's coming. It aches for the coming-it can hardly wait! And it doesn't lie. If it seems slow in coming, wait. It's on its way. It will come right on time."
~Habakkuk 2:2-3 (The Message)
So, I literally plan to write out the vision in big letters and hang it in our house. Weird. I know. But sometimes the things God asks us to do, do not make sense. I never ever in million years would have guessed two years ago that by this time in my life I would have flown to Guatemala (don't like heights), would have had my heart broken for orphans, and would have two babies on the way (at least at the same time). So, though it may not make sense, I'll take God at His Word.